So, I am learning.....slowly....oh so slowly....baby steps...
This is how i have to do things... a step and learning experience at a time...i have to chew the fat....a bit...and then move on....
that's how i feel about my artwork right now....
the last year, i have been trying to make artwork that is more, commercial....?...
and in the end, have managed to make artwork that is not what i really feel comfortable with....
i mean, it's ok......
but, it isn't me....
it just me trying to make something to try and get some money....that's the truth...
and in the end.. i haven't really sold much of anything....
so, i've been spinning my wheels...
so, i've come to the conclusion, that i need to get back on track...and go the path that i need to stick to...and get back into the artwork that i really feel connected to....
i'm not an illustrator....i've tried....and i can do it...but when i do it...i know in my gut, it isn't what i am supposed to be doing....it isn't the artwork that is coming from my soul....
it's just stuff i do....
and it's not what i'm supposed to be doing....
i'm the kind of artist that needs to feel and emotional connection with my work....like i have to work out some idea....or something...
i guess my art has to be like some sort of therapy....maybe...i dunno...
but, i can't just constantly do art for the sake of making something pretty...it just feels completely false for me....for me.....
it's fun for me to make pretty things sometimes...i mean, let's face it...i like to make stuff....
but, when it comes down to what i want to put out in the world....i need to feel like it is real and that it makes a connection...or makes people think....or question...and that isn't what i have been making the last year.....
and it is time to get back to it.....
starting...LAST WEEK.....
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