you better get on it

So, i'm still waiting for the baby to arrive....tired and feeling like crap...i don't like slowing down because of the physical....it is frustrating because it isout of your control at times...like now...i can't control feeling like crap....

it isjust the end  of the pregnancy and that is how it goes....and i am wrapping my head around my physical limitations....

when i get old...and i can't get around...i am going to be one grumpy broad....so, the control freak in me wants to start working out again as soon as possible when the baby is born....because that will be best for the whole family...i will be happier and a happy momma makes everyone else's lives' happy too....

we have so many life changes going on right now in our family...all of us do....

so very many.....

one of the things i am finding difficult is deciding what I need to focus on as far as what to make for the Etsy shop...so far i have just been doing paintings..and honestly...they are boring me....i look at other's shops, see their paintings and they are inspiring...and then i don't feel like i can do that...

ugh...

i gotta get on it....

i have been doing a few drawings while I am stuck resting.....things that are similar to works that got positive feedback already....

now to get things scanned in....and uploaded....

if only my physical state will cooperate....

for the last week

so, right now we are awaiting the arrival of our daughter...went to hospital last sunday and got sent back home with the instructions, " don't come back until it feels like you have slammed your hand in a car door every five minutes for an hour...."


um....ok....

then, i got put on bedrest....
then that got upgraded to "very limited activity"

so, you can imagine that i haven't felt like doing much...if anything at all....I've been pretty useless really....despite trying....
three times last week, i thought i was going to pass out just walking from the vehicle to the house.....which inhales most profusely....

sad thing is, i really want to solder right now...have for a few weeks now....but i still need some metal tape for the backs of the peices i want to make...ugh...

also, i haven't soldered in ages...so it would be a big experiement for me...

i worked on a few peices the other day...another bird...a few postacrds...but, i haven't been able to scan them in and take care of all of that...i need to get them on etsy....

one thing i have found about etsy....is that...just because someone says they bought something from you..until you get teh money...they can change their mind....i have a peice that says it is sold...i got really excited about it....and three weeks later...no money has shown up...and no response to me trying to contact them...that sucks....

and right now....i'm just trying to not break a sweat...keep my BP down...try to not have a heart attack...and waiting for this baby to get here.....

Bright Star

i am finally getting around to watching Bright Star...

i think more than anything i am visually stimulated by this production more than th story...which is slow for me and depressing...though lovely in that depressing sort of hopeless way....

Ms. Braun's costumes, stitching and meticulous designs make me want to get to the sewing machine right now with piles of linen, gauze, satin ribbons and lace....to wear long dresses with long bloomers and the lace on the edge of the hems...with boots...and short jackets...

colours of navy, cornflower blue, tans, reds, poppy inspired, flower inspired colours....

the colour combinations.....oh the colours....

Today's work so far...

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New routines....

art journal as blog entry experiement

baby steps

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so, right now, i'm just putting whatever i have up on Etsy....this is how i work....i have to just finallyforce myself to do something, and not think about it....

i tend to overanalyze...want things perfect...and then when i have completely worn myself down...i just go with "good enough"...that is where i am right now with getting my Etsy shop going...i'm just putting myself out there and seeing what happens...

sort of a buckshot, scattershot, approach to life...that's what has always seemed to work best for me in life...to just scatter it all around and then the opportunities that are supposed to happen...find me...

so, right now i am plugging away at just trying to get work in the shop....in the back of my head i am really thinking:

• yes, i know there is better work out there
• yes, i know that i can do better work
• yes, i know that it isn't grad school quality work
• yes,  i know that i can do better...( i now i said that already too)
• but i also know, that i am enjoying this...for he first time in ages, this is making me feel as though i'm actually accomplishing something.....that i am getting to enjoy the process...for myself...for a change....
• and that is a huge dealio.... 

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